A year ago I was in a different place. I was a different girl. A year ago something unexpected happened to me that I will never forget. I didn’t know if it was possible to recover from what happened and to move on. I didn’t know if I could possibly bounce back and be the same person I was. I am writing this to finally share my story, without sharing the details. So I’m writing this right now, exactly a year later, to announce to myself, that i am a different person, a better person because of what happened. I’m smarter, I’m kinder, and now, I’m actually happier.
What happened to me was extremely upsetting, and no matter how much I wish I could take back what happened, no amount of wishing, or praying will change what happened. Finally I have accepted this. Today, on the anniversary of what happened, I wrote a very lengthy letter to myself basically forgiving myself and all of the people involved for what happened. I apologized to myself for being so hard on myself and letting my past be my prisoner for this past year. I actually attached the letter to a balloon, I went down to the lake, stood on the rocks, said a little prayer, listened to some uplifting songs, and I let go. Literally and figuratively. I let go of that balloon and I let go of the past mistakes and regrets that were lingering. It felt great.
Yes, I have changed, but after it all, I’ve changed for the better. Your past is not here to haunt you, it’s actually here to teach you lessons. Take everything negative that happens to you and turn It into something positive... share your story, or don’t. It’s up to you!
I will not let my past mistakes or past memories confine me, define me or outshine me. I am letting go and I am moving on! I am turning this pain into power. It feels good to finally speak about what happened even if I’m not completely sharing all the details. So thank you for taking the few minutes it took to read this, it means a lot to me and I hope that this can help someone else who needs to move on from the past like I so did. You can be exactly who you want to be, if you just let yourself.
This is a new year for me, a new fresh start. I am going to let myself be the happy girl that I have always been. Today is NEVER too late to be brand new.
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